The last four years I have been in a long distance relationship with my boyfriend Brian. Recently we have decided to change that. In September I will be packing up all my belongings and will move away from my home state of California to a whole new state, Washington! I have a lot of emotions going through my head with this change all of which I will talk about!
1. Afraid/Scared/Anxious- There are many reasons for this emotion. I'm scared because, like I said, I'll be moving away from the state I grew up in for 27 years of my life. My family lives here and I'll be moving away from them and it scares me to pieces! Another reason to be scared is because of the fact I've been in a long distance relationship for 4 yrs and we'll be seeing each other more often than just every few months! Sometimes it's very easy to wonder if we'll make it or not. Those are just a couple reasons but there are probably a couple more.
2. Brave/Confident/Hopeful- These emotions totally contradict my 1st emotion. I feel brave because I'm taking a risk and moving away to be with my boyfriend. I'm feeling confident and hopeful that our relationship will go the distance and in the end we'll be together forever and start a family of our own someday.
3. Curiosity- This is a weird one. Curiosity because I'll be living in a new state and just what kind of changes it will bring to me there.
4. Determined- Different reasons for this one. I'm determined to make my relationship with Brian work and I'm determined to do great things in my life while living there i.e. going to school and getting a degree.
5. Depressed/Sad - Depressed because I'll be moving away from my family and won't be seeing them that often anymore. I'm going to miss the friendships I created at my work. I'm going to definitely miss my home.
6. Excited- Excitement is definitely a big one. No longer will I have to endure being in a long distance relationship! Long distance has definitely been very tough on the both of us emotionally. I'm excited that I no longer have to deal with it anymore. I'm also excited for all the changes that will come in the months to come!
7. Happy- Happy that I no longer have to deal with long distance anymore. Happy that I'll get to see Brian as often as I like to and not have a computer to look at everyday.
I hope you all wish me luck on my new adventure. I'm very excited to be taking this risk and look forward to seeing what the future holds for me in my new state and in my relationship! :)
